why i blog.

i know you've probably read about a million and one of these, but i felt it was necessary to do, not just for you, but for me and to help keep myself in check.

first off, i will say that it's so easy to get side-tracked in the blogging world. i'm not really sure why that is, but it just happens, too much and too often in my opinion. i guess it's just easy to look at other blogs and start the comparison games which can, if you let it, lead you astray until you no longer know why you're "here". i'm speaking from a little bit of experience.

this space was started in complete innocence while i was pregnant with our son, rylan. it began with a poem to him. i was lying awake in bed one night waaaay past any decent hour that one should be asleep (which happens quite often around here-i have a tough time "shutting off" so to say) and this poem just came to me and i had to get it out.

in the morning i shared it with nick who proceeded to compliment my writing. my husband then shared it with a friend of his who agreed with the compliments. i can write? who? me? who would've thought it? not me that's for sure.

i mustered up enough courage to get this blog up not really knowing exactly where it would go, but i can see it now.

// 1 //  to remember. i want to remember all the details, big and small. when first steps were taken, how i felt the day my children were born, what they looked like, how they talked, the funny things, the hard things, the good and the not so good and most of all how we loved.

// 2 //  for growth. i hope to be able to look back and see how much God has grown and changed us over time. we know God uses things in our lives to purify us and we want His sanctifying work to be visible. i desire to see this process in progress for myself.

// 3 //  i like to write, simple as that. this blog has created a longing in me to write a book, just one good one will do.

// 4 // to express myself. if you know me then you know i'm not the biggest talker. i'm a bit shy, that is until you've stuck around long enough. but i'v got a lot to say man! sometimes i feel like i'm just going to burst with all the thoughts going on in my head and this is my way to sort through things and get it onto "paper". it definitely helps open up some free space upstairs :).

// 5 // to encourage. it is my hope that as i share our journey others will be encouraged along the way. i have a special place in my heart for mothers and building them up. may we all stay on course, find contentment in the difficult days of motherhood and rid ourselves of the "mommy wars".

and that's that.