February 10, 2012

a rough night...

So...last night was pretty rough.

I accidentally cut my baby boy's finger while trying to clip his nails.

It was seriously one of the saddest, most traumatic things ever and I boo-hoo-ed like a crazy person. I most likely cried more than he did.

I always knew he would get hurt, fall, scrape a knee, break a bone and maybe get hurt by someone else...but not by me...

Hearing the cries that I caused was heart-wrenching. It felt as if a part of me was in pain, hurting, bleeding. It hurt to see him hurt.

...and I spent the rest of the night holding him, loving him and telling him how sorry I was.

I know this life is full of trials and pain and it is going to be difficult to watch him hurt. I only hope that he finds comfort in our Father above to help him face this world.

 Lord, help me trust You with his life.

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17 comments:

  1. awww he's so cute!! U didn't do it on purpose, stuff like that happens...and it's not that bad!!!

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  2. This post broke my heart just reading about it because I can only imagine what you went though. As easy as it is to say these things will inevitably happen it is just so hard to face them when they do. I think the good part is that maybe they'll get easier to face as time goes on. I absolutely love everything about your blog. I cannot wait to see more :D

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  3. aw, look at those big eyes, i'm sure he forgives you. and don't worry, i know that every mother has this fear, but you are doing so beautifully! :)
    xo TJ

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  4. Oh :( I could imagine your pain at his pain, but it's ok! I am sure he's already forgiven you, haha. It is pretty crazy that we have the power and responsibility to create and care for a little human with a personality, soul, and everything! But I am sure you are doing a great job! So adorable! :)

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  5. I did the same thing when Liam was about that age. It broke my heart. I can tell that you are such a good mommy!
    Lots of love,
    Nicole

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  6. This reminds me of something awful that happened with Ben. It's just the most awful thing. I can't really explain without the use of wild gesturing (and my tears, still), but basically Ben was three and when we were leaving the house, he'd put one finger into the gap in door frame. I ALWAYS checked doors for fingers but it hadn't occurred to me he would put them in the same side as the hinges- does that make sense?

    Well, the door was on a latch and shut FULLY on his finger, he screamed and I think it was one of the worst noises I've ever heard. The door was on a latch but it was about ten seconds before I could open the door as my hands were shaking so violently. I got it open and drove to the hospital like a maniac! I was convinced they'd tell me that I'd shattered the bone in his finger and he'd never catch a ball, hold a pen etc. I was so stressed I was physically sick as I ran from the car park into the hospital.

    Sooooo... he was x-rayed and it turns out he was fine. Apparently, when they are very young, the bones aren't set so they often (gulp) bend. He lost a nail but it grew back perfectly.

    Every parent I know told me something like this happens to every parent but it doesn't make you feel any better. For months afterwards I had a re-occurring nightmare where I opened the door and his finger fell off!

    Phew! It was emotional just typing that. My point is that we care, nurture, and love these little guys beyond words but we are human and make mistakes but hopefully our children are forgiving of our errors. Lots of love to your little man and I hope it heals well. Rx

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  7. thanks guys! he is doing good and is very forgiving! i love him :)...i also appreciate knowing i'm not the only one that has done something like this!

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  8. Aw you sweet and precious momma! We are all human, and we cannot be perfect. You are amazing and the first step is remembering that you are a wonderful mother, your sweet little one is just fine, and he love you ALL THE SAME! :)

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  9. He is precious! I just started following! Cute blog!

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  10. this sweet angel is precious! I think that he will forgive such a wonderful mother like you! Even babies understand accidents and I know that he loves you just like you love him. Just look at his face!

    Much love from over here: http://www.thellielife.blogspot.com/

    Hope to read more soon!
    Happy weekend!

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  11. WOOW....THIS BABY IS BEAUTIFUL!!!PERFECT EYES!!! <3

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  12. ahh poor baby. poor mama. :)

    my mom did this to my littlest sister the day she was born. we had to cut down a little band aid for her tiny finger.

    xo

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  13. Aww poor mommy and baby! My sister is beyond terrified and will NOT cut her nails, so I have to do it each time I am around, haha... It IS scary though...

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