it's started to sink in that my baby will no longer be my "baby" when this new little one comes along.
it's hard to take in right now. i'm feeling all sorts of emotions about it and the pregnancy hormones don't help. it's one of the most bittersweet things i can imagine, watching one baby grow up, taking on a new role in life and then welcoming another in his place.
it's the weirdest of feelings, a mix of loss and gain that i most definitely can't describe in its entirety.
whenever the sadness starts to creep in i remind myself that i still have 5 months with this baby sitting in front of me. 5 whole months with rylan as my baby. 5 whole months to kiss his chubby cheeks and to dance around the living room. just me and him.
i'm doing my best to just soak it all in. i love you baby.
both of you.